I know it's been a while since my last update.. the week has practically flown by so quickly I can't believe it's thursday already! So the week's been super exciting with school and all, the work is piling and it's been busy. In between homework, meetings and going to school, I've started moving my stuff. For those who don't know, I'm moving out of my cousin's into my friend's house which is IN town and close to school, and the fact that she is in every single of my classes is a God given blessing! I'm extremely excited to move because my current living situation is not working out at all. Walking to catch a freakin bus when its freakin -30 degrees outside is far from what you can imagine. So being able to get a ride home and back, being near the skating rink, and this hill to go turbarganing, the gym to use the sauna and 5 mins away from downtown makes it A LOT better.
Despite the crazy schedule, I managed to catch Alpha Dog on wed, its the new Justin Timeberlake movie. I recommend it to anyone who wants to watch it. I loved the movie cos it was the 1st movie of 2007 to make me bawl my eyes out. Terribly embarassing, but I couldn't help it. That's the only going out i have done all week so yea. It's been too cold to do anything much. So everyone pretty much indoors.
The last few days have been very evenful. Lots of different interesting things happened over the last couple of days. I also wrote out a significantly important email to the someone who used to be very special. That was probably the turning point of the week because, after that, my whole week turned around and so did my mood and my temper. I think I'm back to my normal self again which feels great. Things are finally going my way and I'm just taking things in stride now. I think everything, for once, is going to be alright :) When my room is kinda furnished i'll post pictures up!
Music:Set me free- Paul Oakenfold
Thursday, January 25, 2007
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
The roughest yet..
So far, the week has pretty much been the shittiest week in my life, and it's only Thursday. I'm pretty sure that it's not gonna get worse. I can't wait for the weekend to sit back and relax little bit. Might take a bubble bath while I'm at it too.
It's been really weird. I think if I stayed off the computer and hung out, my week wld have been much better. Things are going really well here, except for the God-forsakened weather now, but well, there is lots of snow, and snow is very fun. School's pretty much the same, although the assignments will be piling soon. The peeps are doing their own thing,I'm gaining some stability and having a life outside perpetual visits to the bar. I'll be moving in with Chrissy soon and I'm looking forward to that. So everything here has been surprisingly smooth-sailing and very pleasant. Then, this is totally offset when i turn on the com to see what's going on back home. My goodness, chaos is probably an understatement. Absolute havoc! It's been terribly upsetting over the last few days to hear what's been going on. Honestly, I don't even know what to do or say anymore. I'm just going to let time heal all wounds. Hopefully, when I get home things will be better.
And then we move on to briefly talk about this word that has been much associated with me over the last couple of months/weeks/days. It is CHANGE. So maybe it seems like I've changed, but I know myself. I haven't changed one bit. If only anyone can view things in my point of view will they understand. I'm still me. Jezsica has been here with me. She's known me from back home and she knows me now. She'll say I've been dumb, but she's also said, I haven't changed. It's complicated to explain and I'm not going to. I don't wish to make it seem like i'm making excuses for myself. A lot of why "change" is associated with me is because most info was second-hand, from a particular blabber mouth whose intentions I'm sure, was anything but noble, decided to screw things up. I know me, and I haven't changed. Sure, some of my perspectives have changed, opinions on certain things, but I'm in a totally different society, you just learn to see somethings in a different light. Choosing to not learn and adapt is plain ignorance, so I won't beat myself up for having a different take on things.
Me being here, to everything that has happened and is happening, happens for a reason. I'm not saying that I've done the greatest job in settling down, but God knows I've tried. Being able to only live from day to day has been extremely tough, but i realised it's the best way for me right now. It keeps everything in control and it allows for damage control. At the end of the day, I still look at my mistakes and realise that I clould have done things differently. At the same time, I cannot afford to sit and wallow in everything that goes wrong. I have no doubt that I'll make it out alive and in one piece, with a great experience to tell. So I hope that these certain people will see that, because this is what i want and I'm ready to fight with everything that's in me.
I love u guys! Ess, Clare, Farna and Moo... The indecisive, naive,reactive,dependent,cannot make it Vanessa is still here!!
Music: Three days Grace- Pain
It's been really weird. I think if I stayed off the computer and hung out, my week wld have been much better. Things are going really well here, except for the God-forsakened weather now, but well, there is lots of snow, and snow is very fun. School's pretty much the same, although the assignments will be piling soon. The peeps are doing their own thing,I'm gaining some stability and having a life outside perpetual visits to the bar. I'll be moving in with Chrissy soon and I'm looking forward to that. So everything here has been surprisingly smooth-sailing and very pleasant. Then, this is totally offset when i turn on the com to see what's going on back home. My goodness, chaos is probably an understatement. Absolute havoc! It's been terribly upsetting over the last few days to hear what's been going on. Honestly, I don't even know what to do or say anymore. I'm just going to let time heal all wounds. Hopefully, when I get home things will be better.
And then we move on to briefly talk about this word that has been much associated with me over the last couple of months/weeks/days. It is CHANGE. So maybe it seems like I've changed, but I know myself. I haven't changed one bit. If only anyone can view things in my point of view will they understand. I'm still me. Jezsica has been here with me. She's known me from back home and she knows me now. She'll say I've been dumb, but she's also said, I haven't changed. It's complicated to explain and I'm not going to. I don't wish to make it seem like i'm making excuses for myself. A lot of why "change" is associated with me is because most info was second-hand, from a particular blabber mouth whose intentions I'm sure, was anything but noble, decided to screw things up. I know me, and I haven't changed. Sure, some of my perspectives have changed, opinions on certain things, but I'm in a totally different society, you just learn to see somethings in a different light. Choosing to not learn and adapt is plain ignorance, so I won't beat myself up for having a different take on things.
Me being here, to everything that has happened and is happening, happens for a reason. I'm not saying that I've done the greatest job in settling down, but God knows I've tried. Being able to only live from day to day has been extremely tough, but i realised it's the best way for me right now. It keeps everything in control and it allows for damage control. At the end of the day, I still look at my mistakes and realise that I clould have done things differently. At the same time, I cannot afford to sit and wallow in everything that goes wrong. I have no doubt that I'll make it out alive and in one piece, with a great experience to tell. So I hope that these certain people will see that, because this is what i want and I'm ready to fight with everything that's in me.
I love u guys! Ess, Clare, Farna and Moo... The indecisive, naive,reactive,dependent,cannot make it Vanessa is still here!!
Music: Three days Grace- Pain
Sunday, January 14, 2007
More updates
So I haven't blogged in ages now. The first week of school just went by.. feelings about school.. a little mixed. The class is still really clique-ish because no one really wants to make friends cos in 4 mths we'll be switching again. That makes forming grps for grp presentations really annoying.. but I'll deal. The week kinda flew by real quick.. like i said.. my schedule doesn't wear me out on any particular day which gives me time to have a life.. or something like it! This semester has a whole lot of things going on including; a dinner for marketing students, a fieldtrip, 5 different presentations, and a ton of assignments. So that'll keep me in the books and out of trouble for a while ;)
Moving on, this week was a little messy from adjusting to the new schedule, and settling a whole buch of administration stuff. Well I guess some people were just in a "let's piss Vanessa off by being either a bitch, for one or a jackass, for another." But it was fine. One's settled, one more to go. Speaking of which, after this, I need to see if a certain someone has had the decency to pay his dues and get out of my life. An incident that probably got me thinking, that I had been such a fool in so many different ways over the last couple of years. I'm sure he feels the same way. We both kind of wasted a lot of resources which could have been channeled elsewhere, that's my opinion at least. But whatever, it's over and done with and I think I'm finally ready to close that chapter of my life, and write a new one. No I'm not writing this in anger. My one word is ungrateful. Use it any way.
On a happier note, I had an awesome weekend(or should i say Saturday evening- Sunday evening). Spent the day with Chrissy, where we covered a whole range of activities; gyming, sauna-ing,tanning(in a tanning bed!! it was a freakish experience but i'll be back for more!), got our nails done, waxed ourselves, drank with Thang and Fernanado, watched 2 rented movies and ate pizza! All for a total of $10, which was for the pizza. I love hanging out at that house, which makes me think I should just move in with them, cos it's so much more convenient. We'll be making a decision this week, I'll update! And oh man, could i ever be more UNFIT! The aches everywhere speak for itself!
Basically the summary of this week.. will blog more often! Gotta shower and get some work done and watch the new season of The Apprentice ,Los Angeles!
Music: Rockstar- Nickeback
Weather: -10, Snow!
Moving on, this week was a little messy from adjusting to the new schedule, and settling a whole buch of administration stuff. Well I guess some people were just in a "let's piss Vanessa off by being either a bitch, for one or a jackass, for another." But it was fine. One's settled, one more to go. Speaking of which, after this, I need to see if a certain someone has had the decency to pay his dues and get out of my life. An incident that probably got me thinking, that I had been such a fool in so many different ways over the last couple of years. I'm sure he feels the same way. We both kind of wasted a lot of resources which could have been channeled elsewhere, that's my opinion at least. But whatever, it's over and done with and I think I'm finally ready to close that chapter of my life, and write a new one. No I'm not writing this in anger. My one word is ungrateful. Use it any way.
On a happier note, I had an awesome weekend(or should i say Saturday evening- Sunday evening). Spent the day with Chrissy, where we covered a whole range of activities; gyming, sauna-ing,tanning(in a tanning bed!! it was a freakish experience but i'll be back for more!), got our nails done, waxed ourselves, drank with Thang and Fernanado, watched 2 rented movies and ate pizza! All for a total of $10, which was for the pizza. I love hanging out at that house, which makes me think I should just move in with them, cos it's so much more convenient. We'll be making a decision this week, I'll update! And oh man, could i ever be more UNFIT! The aches everywhere speak for itself!
Basically the summary of this week.. will blog more often! Gotta shower and get some work done and watch the new season of The Apprentice ,Los Angeles!
Music: Rockstar- Nickeback
Weather: -10, Snow!
Monday, January 8, 2007
Back In School
Today was the first day back after a well-deserved break. So all of us are reshuffled from 5 classes into 4. There 's about 5 people frm my previous class who are in my new class. It's kind of a weird feeling to go back to a buch of new faces. It almost felt like the first day of school all over again. But I have the hot/joker/cool/mysterious guys in my class, so it's all good.
Haven't met all my teachers yet but my management teacher is a follow up from last sem. That creeper. My schedule's looking real good and my breaks are in sync with my buddy Dave,Which awesome so i get to see him during breaks!! The school feels different cos there's a whole bunch of new people and a whole other bunch that dropped out :( But well, I'm sure i'll catch up with them at the clubs. That's why they dropped out in the first place.
I have yet to decipher what the culture of my new class is, but I hope we have a good mix of all the types, good and bad. I think we all agree that we miss our class from last semester, cos most friendships were just forming over the 4 months and now its kinda gone. Most friends tired switching into each other's classes ie Chrissy switching into mine :) We'll see with time i guess!
Music: Kelvin's Bon Jovi's impersonation of "It's my life"
Haven't met all my teachers yet but my management teacher is a follow up from last sem. That creeper. My schedule's looking real good and my breaks are in sync with my buddy Dave,Which awesome so i get to see him during breaks!! The school feels different cos there's a whole bunch of new people and a whole other bunch that dropped out :( But well, I'm sure i'll catch up with them at the clubs. That's why they dropped out in the first place.
I have yet to decipher what the culture of my new class is, but I hope we have a good mix of all the types, good and bad. I think we all agree that we miss our class from last semester, cos most friendships were just forming over the 4 months and now its kinda gone. Most friends tired switching into each other's classes ie Chrissy switching into mine :) We'll see with time i guess!
Music: Kelvin's Bon Jovi's impersonation of "It's my life"
Saturday, January 6, 2007
The Drama.
Ok.. long time no post. Firstly, I need to make my very first public apology to my Darlings(Fab 4 and Moo... specifically.) I'm sorry u guys for doing whatever i did and saying whatever I said. It was stupid and irresponsible.. I take the blame. Thanks for reminding me once again, I still have people who care about me. You forget that sometimes when the going gets rough here. I promise, Cross my heart, no such thing will happen again, for real. I'll let u hold me to my word. This drama is wayyy too much and I dont like being faraway without having control of the situation that's happening back home. I know you guys care.. but an intervention that huge.. sld have me notified at the very least. I didn't appreciate that.. but i know it was out of concern.. so again Thank you. I'm alright now.. everything is back to normal.. so please.. take a small timeout and everything will be ok.
So, the holidays are finally coming to an end, and I cannot wait to get busy and meet up with everyone. Its been a nice 3 week break. It's been very eventful and frankly the year couldn't end any better or any worse. The new schedule's looking great.. no early mornings execpt on Fridays, but we end at 12pm.. so the weekend comes in nice and early too! So I think I'm gonna go for yoga every Tuesday. It'll be good to keep fit and relax.. i need to channel my energy elsewhere. I also think I might want to buy a cat. I'm still thinking about that one.. cos I kinda hate cats, but they are somewhat entertaining to keep. The week's been pretty much blah.. haven't done too much over the last few days except stay up and chat online or watch rented movies at home.
Movie recommendations for the week are : Little Miss Sunshine- About a family who tries to get their Beauty-queen wannabe daughter to the little Miss sunshine pagent. There's a nice mix of humour as well as a heart warming storyline, which I liked. The other movie is The Illusionist, staring Edward Norton. Absolutely entertaining to see how an illusionist uses magic to win the love of his life as well as deal with corruption in the government. I absolutely loved it.
Music: Dance Dance- FOB
So, the holidays are finally coming to an end, and I cannot wait to get busy and meet up with everyone. Its been a nice 3 week break. It's been very eventful and frankly the year couldn't end any better or any worse. The new schedule's looking great.. no early mornings execpt on Fridays, but we end at 12pm.. so the weekend comes in nice and early too! So I think I'm gonna go for yoga every Tuesday. It'll be good to keep fit and relax.. i need to channel my energy elsewhere. I also think I might want to buy a cat. I'm still thinking about that one.. cos I kinda hate cats, but they are somewhat entertaining to keep. The week's been pretty much blah.. haven't done too much over the last few days except stay up and chat online or watch rented movies at home.
Movie recommendations for the week are : Little Miss Sunshine- About a family who tries to get their Beauty-queen wannabe daughter to the little Miss sunshine pagent. There's a nice mix of humour as well as a heart warming storyline, which I liked. The other movie is The Illusionist, staring Edward Norton. Absolutely entertaining to see how an illusionist uses magic to win the love of his life as well as deal with corruption in the government. I absolutely loved it.
Music: Dance Dance- FOB
Monday, January 1, 2007
Welcome 2007!!
The best way to welcome the new year.. with good booze, great company and lots of LOVE! Love u guys Chrissy, Thang, Fernando, Dani, Nan!!
Happy New Year to all! Love lots!!
To My darlings back home: I MISS YOU!!
Cheers to 2007 being the best year yet!
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