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My lovelies!!! With clare missing.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
--Neil Gaiman

So yeah.. I agree with the above the quote. I love Nei Gaiman.

So work still SUCKS. I'm getting too fat, it's quite disgusting. I need a foot massager! Blah. this sucks!!


Sense Field- Save Yourself
Turn out the lights.
Just say goodnight
To yourself.
May I remind you
When you find you
Are all alone's when you've
Got to be strong.
That's when they call you
In the night.
He's got your picture
In his mind.
He's got your number
On a paper
At his disposal
Anytime.

Is he really true?
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you?
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who,
Someone who,

You met in a bar.
The back of a car.
And for a moment
You felt important
But not in your heart.
'Cause my self esteem -
It's been low.
Go ahaed and count.
It's been lower than low.
I know the feeling
Of it stealing
Right out from under me.

'Cause I wanna learn -
How you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you.
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
Loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who
Someone who
Will cherish your name.

'Cause I wanna learn.
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
And loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who,
Someone who'll
Cherish your name...
Cherish your name...


This is a useless post. But this song seems appropriate for the quote above.

Too DAMN Busy

I know I haven't updated since like 4637382063738392 years ago. So.. I've been busy working like a fool. I think I'll be quitting soon. Standing for 10 hours is really not my thing. I think it's a stupid job and I'll never do sales again. I have a new found respect for my dad.. sales is too tough for me.

So I have done many many things I set out to accomplish. Well I've eaten most things I have been craving for since like 8 months ago! Watched Shrek 3 and Pirates *yay*. I WANT TO WATCH HAIRSPRAY WHEN IT OPENS!!! I just need to quit my job and find a simpler one.. so the things to do list is....
** Go sentosa
** Go JB
** Eat Sushi
** Meet up with everyone I haven't seen.
** Go for Mambo night
** SHISHA!!
** Eat more
** Shop more
** Get a new job
** Get a new handphone
** Get a new iPod
** Lose some weight!

So many things to do so little time!!!!

HOME SWEET HOME

Man it feels so good to be back on land, in my homeland. Greeted by familiar faces, sights and sounds feels amazing. It's still under 48 hours since I've been home.. and I've ate so much!! The food is delectable... heavenly.. Mmmm.

Surprising Farna yesterday was really fun.. coming back to see her expression was worth it. The food we ordered... Tom yum Soup, Cereal prawns, Hot-plate beancurd, Sambal Kang kong, Mee Goreng, Pandan Chicken. Between 4 girls, that's a lot of food. But it was like I mentioned, HEAVENLY. Then a few hrs later, another round of Scrumptious Dinner with the family.

So apparently, Singapore has changed quite a bit. Everything in town seems to be under renovation of some sort.. shops have improved (i think).. it's quite exciting really. It feels strange to be surrounded by a million people wherever you are, but I'm getting used to it. But the HEAT!!! argh... its makng me sticky and my hair frizzy, and my face oily!!! It is TOO HOT!!!

So many more people to meet and catch up with!! Clare and Pearly faster come come!!! Farna don't leave!!! Shane faster recover!!! I can't wait to go to sentosa, to swim, sun and PLAY VOLLEYBALL!!!! People!! Faster plan!!!

There is indeed no place in the world like home! Yay going out with my MOO MOO darling and hopefully that ess later on! Blog later!!

My Nuy BABY!! plus Gucci

I HAVE to write this post cos I'm in Toronto terribly missing my CAT and knowing that it's not behaving like its normal self doesn't help!!

I am missing my cat Nuy so much and i just need some outlet to rant my frustrations so this is what blogger is for!

I know this is an utter rubbish post but I need to get it out of my system!

The first day I moved in to the house, the cat absolutely terrified me. That's cos I hate cats period. But about a week or 2 in, I realised that cats are pretty loving animals. The have a whole attitude of their own but still loving. About a month in living in the house, I started hearing sounds of scratching on my door around after midnight. It was NUY, the cat. So open the door and it jumps on my bed and falls asleep.... all night with me! And then I was trapped... forever... HE IS THE MOST ADORABLE THING IN THE WORLD! So, like anything I love, I spoilt it... spoilt it so terribly.

The real test of its affection was when I fell really ill. For three days, he never left my bed. Well.. except to eat, shit or pee. The real owner of Nuy, my other roommate Fernando said the cat loves me, for real. For 3 days and nights it snuggled up next to me and it was so loving and every time i coughed or sneezed or was shivering, he came close to me and made a soft meow. He is the CUTEST cat in the world. I miss him so so so so SO SO MUCH! Knowing that he's not acting himself and is being sad and withdrawn is NOT helping at all.

I'll put some pics of him.. sigh.. I miss him!



Gucci is the little kitty that was bought about a month ago. She's the most adorable spoilt brat in the world. I'm gonna miss her high pitched whining.

Last few days in gd ol' K-town

Another Goodbye...

So, seven months of independence, tears, happiness,frustrations, crazy times,drunk times, sober times, fun times, great friends, not-so-great friends and it's all over. It seems like yesterday I was wishing I was back home where I knew I belonged and was (and still is) loved by many. Now this place has become my home, where I know I belong and more importantly loved by the few who really matter to me. It saddens me to begin the packing process all over again and leave the environment I had sought for laughter, love, encouragement and pure fun.

People I'll dearly miss:
1. Chrissy- My housemate, classmate, partner-in-crime, my closest friend.
2. Thanth- Chrissy's bf, his weirdness, and grumpy face
3. Fernando- Other housemate, his stories, kindness and his laughter.
4. Dave- My strong support, poker coach, the one I cld talk to all night long.
5. Isaac- The creeper, who's actually a great friendly guy.
6. Kelvin- The cutest lil thing.

Well, there's gonna be more people, but these are the pple I actually will miss, especially Chrissy, I've never been around anyone other than my family 24/7 and it makes me sad to know, she's not going to be there after this week. I'm gonna put some pictures in from some of the latest "Vanessa's farewell parties".