Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
--Neil Gaiman

So yeah.. I agree with the above the quote. I love Nei Gaiman.

So work still SUCKS. I'm getting too fat, it's quite disgusting. I need a foot massager! Blah. this sucks!!


Sense Field- Save Yourself
Turn out the lights.
Just say goodnight
To yourself.
May I remind you
When you find you
Are all alone's when you've
Got to be strong.
That's when they call you
In the night.
He's got your picture
In his mind.
He's got your number
On a paper
At his disposal
Anytime.

Is he really true?
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you?
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who,
Someone who,

You met in a bar.
The back of a car.
And for a moment
You felt important
But not in your heart.
'Cause my self esteem -
It's been low.
Go ahaed and count.
It's been lower than low.
I know the feeling
Of it stealing
Right out from under me.

'Cause I wanna learn -
How you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you.
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
Loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who
Someone who
Will cherish your name.

'Cause I wanna learn.
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
And loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who,
Someone who'll
Cherish your name...
Cherish your name...


This is a useless post. But this song seems appropriate for the quote above.