Why do all good things come to an end...

So I'm pretty much at the 2 week mark. I have 2 weeks to pack my bags, do all the things I haven't done, eat all the things I haven't eaten and meet all the people I haven't met. 2 weeks seems too short.

The time back home was a blast.. more than I can imagine. I thought coming back and then leaving wld be easy... who knew it was gonna feel like the 1st time. It's the few people that will keep me coming back at least once a year. At the same time, I realised that my social circle has depleted. I didn't quite realise that time fades friendships... it's like we're strangers all over again... So I can imagine.. in 4 years the friends that I'll still have by me will probably be like 5. But it's alright.. cos sometimes you might just only need one... But the truth is people do change... and change is sometimes difficult to accept.

I need to start packing.. like really soon. i NEED to come up with my To-do list! I've been idle at home for days now. I need to get my stuff done damnit. Packing is going to suck cos I'm bad at it and it just reminds me of leaving.

My only consolation are my friends back in Kingston. They're planning outings, clubbing, dinner BBQs and preparing a room to crash in. Obviously they do not empatize with me at all for leaving home... they're more pissed at the fact I was gone all summer.I love my friends... every last one of them.. here or there. They really paint my world with colours, laughter and love.They are simply my world, my pride and joy.

Speaking of friends...
I miss you, more than I can imagine. Thanks for the memories.But because all good things come to an end....

Bittersweet

So as of today, I'm no longer employed. That means that 2 months have flown. 2 damn months out of the 3 months that I'm back has flown! I have one month left to savour every moment spent with the people I love more than anything in the world. Dear God.. I'll be away for 11 months thereafter....Wow..

At the same time, I'm yearning to see the people I've learnt to love on the other side of the world. To re-live the crazy, drunk, sober,spastic times. To breathe in the nice fresh air and manja my cat.. and freeze my ass off. It's only going to be 27 days till I leave. Oh man.. I think only Jezs knows what i'm feeling.. it's like extreme excitement and at the same time... extreme sadness.

Highlights

** Drama at the Workplace
** Retro clubbing at MOS (bloody awesome)
** Cafe Del Mar- Thanks to those who put up with my drunken nonsense. Won't happen again :)
** Daily supper at Mas Ayu with Vicki dearest.
** Attica Too
** Drinking at Gorges
** Being entertained by Vicki B.

I'm free for a month.. so Zoo, Night Safari, Sentosa, Clubs, East Coast Beach, Airport, Coffee Shops and all things Singaporean... here I come! Hurray.

And as for bittersweet.. someone tell me why it seems like it's more bitter than sweet.

Long Over due!

Ok so my posts have started to get more irregular. But I have valid reasons. I work 6 bloody God damned days a week. i barely have time to comb my hair.. u know what I mean. But somehow.. this stressful, hectic, tiring life appeals to me. I've been doing very well. Work is stressful but it has its perks. I really only have time for the people that I REALLY want to spend time with.. you guys know who u are. So it's a great excuse to give to those who's company I can really do without.

Higlights of the past few weeks would include:
* Clubbing at Zouk
* Chilling out at East Coast.
* Certain work incidents.
* Fabulous 4's last supper
* Dessert at Canale(heavenlicious)
* Parents leaving :(
* My various delicious feasts.
* Shane's condo!!*again pls babe?*
* Moo's in Japan:( (Tokyo bananas?!!)
* Rebonded hair.

So yeah. BUT the main highlight is WOMAD!!! We need to dig very deep into our pockets.. but at least we're digging together right??!! I'm already excited.. I hope I really get to go.. even if it's one day. I forget to carry my camera when i go out!! Argh.. ok more pics the next time.

Pearly Teo!!! Pls meet up!! Both you and your girlfriend.. I want to meet her!! and we can eat at this fabulous dessert place. better that Max Brenner!! OMG the chocolate is TO DIE FOR!

And I miss my 2 cats.(The one in canada and the one in Aussie!) Very random but I really do.

Pictures Galore

My lovelies!!! With clare missing.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
--Neil Gaiman

So yeah.. I agree with the above the quote. I love Nei Gaiman.

So work still SUCKS. I'm getting too fat, it's quite disgusting. I need a foot massager! Blah. this sucks!!


Sense Field- Save Yourself
Turn out the lights.
Just say goodnight
To yourself.
May I remind you
When you find you
Are all alone's when you've
Got to be strong.
That's when they call you
In the night.
He's got your picture
In his mind.
He's got your number
On a paper
At his disposal
Anytime.

Is he really true?
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you?
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who,
Someone who,

You met in a bar.
The back of a car.
And for a moment
You felt important
But not in your heart.
'Cause my self esteem -
It's been low.
Go ahaed and count.
It's been lower than low.
I know the feeling
Of it stealing
Right out from under me.

'Cause I wanna learn -
How you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you.
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
Loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who
Someone who
Will cherish your name.

'Cause I wanna learn.
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
And loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who,
Someone who'll
Cherish your name...
Cherish your name...


This is a useless post. But this song seems appropriate for the quote above.

Too DAMN Busy

I know I haven't updated since like 4637382063738392 years ago. So.. I've been busy working like a fool. I think I'll be quitting soon. Standing for 10 hours is really not my thing. I think it's a stupid job and I'll never do sales again. I have a new found respect for my dad.. sales is too tough for me.

So I have done many many things I set out to accomplish. Well I've eaten most things I have been craving for since like 8 months ago! Watched Shrek 3 and Pirates *yay*. I WANT TO WATCH HAIRSPRAY WHEN IT OPENS!!! I just need to quit my job and find a simpler one.. so the things to do list is....
** Go sentosa
** Go JB
** Eat Sushi
** Meet up with everyone I haven't seen.
** Go for Mambo night
** SHISHA!!
** Eat more
** Shop more
** Get a new job
** Get a new handphone
** Get a new iPod
** Lose some weight!

So many things to do so little time!!!!

HOME SWEET HOME

Man it feels so good to be back on land, in my homeland. Greeted by familiar faces, sights and sounds feels amazing. It's still under 48 hours since I've been home.. and I've ate so much!! The food is delectable... heavenly.. Mmmm.

Surprising Farna yesterday was really fun.. coming back to see her expression was worth it. The food we ordered... Tom yum Soup, Cereal prawns, Hot-plate beancurd, Sambal Kang kong, Mee Goreng, Pandan Chicken. Between 4 girls, that's a lot of food. But it was like I mentioned, HEAVENLY. Then a few hrs later, another round of Scrumptious Dinner with the family.

So apparently, Singapore has changed quite a bit. Everything in town seems to be under renovation of some sort.. shops have improved (i think).. it's quite exciting really. It feels strange to be surrounded by a million people wherever you are, but I'm getting used to it. But the HEAT!!! argh... its makng me sticky and my hair frizzy, and my face oily!!! It is TOO HOT!!!

So many more people to meet and catch up with!! Clare and Pearly faster come come!!! Farna don't leave!!! Shane faster recover!!! I can't wait to go to sentosa, to swim, sun and PLAY VOLLEYBALL!!!! People!! Faster plan!!!

There is indeed no place in the world like home! Yay going out with my MOO MOO darling and hopefully that ess later on! Blog later!!