Quiz

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

CHLOE!!

Name: Chloe
Breed:Smoked Blue Cream Himalayan (Dad: Silver Chinchilla, Mom: Blue Point Himalayan)
Eyes: Now: Blue, Future: Green
Character: Sweet-tempered, MANJA, Playful

So she finally here!! Wow, it has been a gruelling 24 hours so far. She's getting comfortable around the apartment and she's been a really good kitten thus far. So far, there's been no problems execept she requires MANJA when she's awake and she won't sleep alone.But she's still a kitten (8 weeks) and she sleeps pretty much 60% of the time.. but when she's awake it's constant playing, disciplining and manja-ing. She's such a big bundle of joy although she's so tiny. She's SO PRETTY, we can't get over it yet. We've got the best cat in the world!

I'll leave u guys with a video and some photos! Enjoy!

When directions change

Time had passed me by so quickly. I can't believe it's almost the end of another school year. I met the love of my life when the school year began, and he's made these two semesters of school and being in Ottawa so memorable and beautiful. The sun's shining big and bright these days and everyone is a little chirpier and life in general, seems a little brighter.

Today, I had some time on my hands, so I sat back and thought about everyone that I love and terribly miss (yes, all my darlings at home)Then I thought to myself... everyone's directions are changing, yet somehow, we're all taking the turns on our own. My fab 4 darlings, we're all so far from each other, suddenly forcing us to gain independence and hang on while we embrace ourselves for the changes that come our way. My family: my parents, Tim, Nicole and probably even Marc, it never fails to make me so proud that I have the family that I do, they're all so smart and so strong in their own ways... it obviously runs in the John genes.

Then there's the boyfriend. He deserves a whole paragraph. The last six months have been nothing short of exciting, adventurous, full of love and a great abudance of FOOD. You've been my strongest support, my best friend,my confidant and my lover. Although it hasn't always been easy, you've never given up on me and on us, and you probably don't know how much that means. When I think about you and all the silly things we(you) do, it cracks me up every single time. In your words "I know a good thing when I see it". Babe, what we have is a great thing, and don't u ever forget that.

I want May to come soon, so I can start my freaking holiday! But I'll just patiently wait till April 19th to reunite with the latest addition to the family... Chloe!! Yet again, our directions are changing... I can't wait!

LOVE LOVE LOVES!!

So this is the newest addition to my anything-but-mundane life. 5 more weeks before I get to see her again. 5 more weeks before my life is going to take yet another turn. I'm SO EXCITED to have her come home!!

She's a Smoked Blue Cream Himalayan Cat. She was only 3 weeks old when we first saw her... she melted me heart as well as the 3 "manly" guys with me. She's gonna melt your hearts too!

When dreams come true

On Tuesday, 26th February 2008 at approximately at 8pm, I stood in awe looking at the Spice Girls live in flesh standing less than 50m away from me. In that moment everything was surreal, it almost felt as though time stopped. I was watching the SPICE GIRLS' FINAL performance EVER with the Love of my Life. I couldn't help but allow a tear(or two) of joy to trickle down my face. In that moment I was truly happy.

Their performance was amazing, I don't think I'll ever see anything like that ever again. There are no words that will do justice to their performance. However I must say that during the performance I wished my closest friends were there with me because it was such a magical 3 hours. I know if I died today, I'll be a happy woman.

Besides that, nothing much has been going on. We're apartment hunting right now for May 1st. It's been really fun to look for an apartment. At the same time, I feel so old because I'd never think that the day I look for an apartment for myself would come just yet. I'm also looking forward to the end of winter, I want the SUN!! I need to tan myself.. omg I'm like turning a weird shade of yellow. And I want to go Swimming, camping, Canada's wonderland and maybe fishing too.

Ok.. till next time! Photos from the concert!

Happy Times

My updating is getting a little slack I noticed, but ok lah it's not too bad. So anyways the momentum of school is kicking in. Workload is piling, tests are coming up in the next couple of weeks, profs are not as good as last semester (esp macroecons and social context of Business... ugh) and I have TWO math courses this sem.. so I think I'm going to drop dead. I'm missing all my girls back home, it feels like it's been so long. I see Mambo pics and partying pics and FOOD...omg I really really wanna come back to see you people and makan. This Moo is like going to Japan and Clare to France.. haiya.. you all leave when I come back.. sadness man.

On a happier note, the BF's birthday just passed a few days ago.. he's an old man now.. 24 yrs old. So we went to Mount Tremblant for his birthday as well as Sophorn's.... although NO ATTENTION was given to the poor guy cos Sopheap is an attention-seeker. But i realised something... skiing is not my thing. I really suck at it and it's ackward...So if we go up again next year.. I'm going to do more sightseeing and other activities like Zip-lining, magic carpet and snow-tubing (less skill involved). It was an awesome trip.. there was 8 of us and the dynamics between everyone is SO FUNNY... in all it was an awesome trip.. I can't wait till summer comes.. cycling, camping, canada's wonderland!!.. I cannot wait!

OK.. onto the MOST exciting news of 2008 (thus far): I'M GOING TO SEE THE SPICE GIRLS LIVE IN CONCERT 26TH FEBRUARY. Ok.. Clare and my fellow Spice Girls lovers you can imagine how friggin excited I am. Like it's like a dream come true... OMG I'm so excited. We just recieved the tickets.. so now it's for real.... I'm really going to see them!!! I hope i don't faint from excitement.. cos otherwise it's like a waste of money.But yes... only a month more then I get to see them. They we not even supossed to perform in Toronto... but cos demand was so great they opened 4 shows in Toronto at the last moment and ALL 4 shows... SOLD OUT IN A DAY! I'm going to see POSH SPICE oh goodness. I'M SO EXCITED. I have the best Boyfriend in the world... there are truly no words to describe how wonderful he is to me. Grateful is an understatement as to how I feel for everything that he's done for me. I don't know what I did to ever deserve this but I'm truly grateful, happy, blessed and loved for everything that I have in my life.

Ok.. so more updates another time!

P.S :Ski trip pics are on facebook. I'll make a collage of it and put it up on my blog in a few hours.. the bf has to be around cos the pics are in his computer.

Christmas+ Welcoming 2008 Baby!!!

I should have blogged a Christmas post but I was too busy having fun. Ok.. So my festivities began on the 23rd of December. Nick and Malika drove me and and the BF to Kingston. The ride was fairly interesting... but i won't elaborate. Anyways... one night in Kingston is NEVER enough. So our evening began with a delicious Christmas dinner cooked by Sopheap's parents...turkey and the whole works. It was SO good! Then we proceeded to opening presents mainly from Sophorn. I got the Stardust DVD!! It was really nice of him to do that. We pre-drank and got ready to hit club Stages. We had an AWESOME time there.. the music is mostly house mixes so it was GOOOOD. I'll put up some random pictures of the short but absolutely fun time at the house as well as at the club.


The next day, I had to get on the bus to Toronto, where i was going to spend the next couple of days with family and friends! Toronto is always fun.. there's so much to do.. so much to EAT!! I love that city. I had an awesome time with everyone. It was great that Jackie came down all the way from florida too. In all, the fun, food, company, laughs and monkeying around was memorable. At the same time, I was terribly missing the BF.. it was pretty bad :( Well for those who know, it was the first time we'd been apart for so long.... I'm a big baby.. yes yes. But in all I had an awesome Christmas.

Moving on, The highlight of the year was really the 31st. It was an awesome day with Sophorn, Chrissy and Jeff down. We were all antsy while waiting to head out and paint Club Heaven red one last time before the year ended. We had fun video taping Chrissy snore in her sleep and catching all the little funny moments that were going on in the apartment. Finally it was time to leave and we were pumped and ready to party.

The club was awesome, we had our party on.. and we were all ready to leave 2007 behind. I think, this has been the best New Years I've had in the LONGEST time. I was there with half of the people I love and my baby boy. It was a FUN FUN night. But by the end of the night, we were drained.. like lifeless almost. But it was worth it, every last second of it. I can't wait to see what 2008 has instored for me. I couldn't begin this year any more perfect. It's gonna be a great year and I know it. Till next time! Enjoy the pictures!

Special 2008 Welcome!!

Hey wassup Vanessa's friends, this is a special post from Sopheap. For those who don't really know me, I'm Vanessa's man. You may have seen one of my many photos on this blog. Somebody likes to be a tourist and take tons of pics. No names of course. Nah, she's the best! Anyway, I just wanted to bring in the new year to her blogger world and wish everyone much success and happiness. Hope to meet you all soon! And I'm out.

When 2007 comes to an end.

So this will be my final blog entry for 2007. The next couple of entries will mainly consist of photos and mini updates.

Memories of 2007 are bittersweet really. The year started the worst possible way imaginable, but it gradually got better.. very gradually but I've pulled through a difficult year.. in one piece too. It's funny how so much happens in one year. My life is way too dramatic for my own good. But finally things have settled down and I'm extremely relieved that things are finally looking up. Much of 2007 will be left behind (people and BAD memories)when the clock hits 0000 on 1st January 2008.

Anyhows, I'm looking forward to start the new year with a clean slate and build new memories and adventures that will carry through the next few years. It sucks that my girls aren't gonna be with me, but when u guys hit the new year 11 hours before me.. make sure u REMEMBER ME!! 2008 is going to be the best year yet and I already feel it...

OK so quick update. Went to my first EVER office Christmas party at the Westin. The food was uber yummy and Sopheap's work friends are just as eccentric as he is. So it was all very entertaining. It definitely broke the stereotype of computer geek I had in my head. In all,the party was great, I think I could get used to attending these things, well Sopheap needs to get used to it too. So it's going to be interesting. So I'm gonna leave some pictures of the party, but I've already flaunted it in Facebook but oh well. He's HOT lah what to do.

Long awaited UPDATES!!

I know I have been breally bad with the updates but anyhow, the last month and a half was filled with fun, friends, and LOTS of freezing. The weather has turned for the worst. I hate the cold and everything about it. I HAVE DRY SKIN!! Anyways, there's been lots of snow. The finals are like tomorrow, Sunday and Tuesaday.. so I'm just trying to finish everything up and begin my holidays.

So this year, Christmas is going to be at Toronto, it should be fun and I CANNOT wait to eat another round of my Aunt's infamous STUFFING, ham and anything else that she is preparing. It's too bad the boy's not gonna be with me on Christmas but I'll see him SOON after. And I'm just going to say I have the BEST boyfriend in the world. He got me a new camera cos my old one was spolit!! Freaking 7.2 megapixals!!! It's our latest toy to play with right now and OMG the camara is damn cool lah. So it's photos/videoes galore for everyone!! *yay* I'm getting fatter by the day and soon none of my clothes won't fit me anymore!! But I digress. Next big thing after Christmas is NYE!! I'm ging to have my favourite Canadian people with me and we're going to countdaown at Niagara Falls. I'm really looking forward to it.

I cannot wait to start a new year, I'm ready to leave this year behind and move on. There's just so many exciting things lined up next year... OMG I CAN'T WAIT! I think that me and the boyfriend should do something extra fun every month.. sounds like a plan. Ok anyways, In January all 8 of us are hitting up the slopes of Mount Tremblant to ski (or in my case, snowball down the hill) for Sopheap and Sophorn's birthday, I cannot wait to go. I'll post pictures and vidoes up for sure over the next couple of weeks. We're also looking into going to New York in Feb because JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE is coming!!!! The tickets are not out yet, but i'm going to be on the ball and make sure I get my hands on some!OMG Madison Square Gardens some more!! I hope it's not crazily priced.

So that's about all my updates. Those that i've talked to on MSN frequently, you know the updates pretty much. So till next time. AND omg.. Ottawa has the best Sushi buffet ALL-YOU-CAN-EAT ever! sashimi inc!! Yum! This is how I get FAT!

LOVE YOU GUYS!!! Have yourselves a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Life and it's pleasures

Life has been unbelievably GREAT the last few weeks. Reasons mainly consists of my boy and food. Lots and lots of food makes Vanessa very happy. The first round of mid-terms are finally over and FINALLY partying last weekend was oozing with awesomeness. We have wayyyy too much fun together, thus few partying nights are sufficient.

Some of the delectable food that I've had this month are the best that I've tried thus far here, so I'm satisfied.

**Phnom Penh (1 hour away,but totally worth it )
- Golden Chicken(spicy)
-Pad Thai(no taugeh)
-cambodian springrolls(mmmmm!)

**Yangtze(Chinatown)
-Dim Sum
-Cantonese Crab

**Imperial Palace (downtown)
-B.C Oyster steamed with black bean (OMG the oyster is so big and omg it's heavenly)

**Pho Bo Gla LA
- The PHO!!! (Viet beef noodle soup)

**The mall
Spicy salmon sushi (although it's like food court, no restaurant has been able to beat their spicy salmon sushi!)

Good food makes me FAT! *DAMNIT*

So... besides food, movies of the month are... Elizabeth and Saw 4. Although the boyfriend fell asleep during Elizabeth and laughed at the wrong parts, Elizabeth is a great movie. Cate Blanchett was phenomenal in the movie. Saw 4.. like all sequels it's almost time for the Saw series to end. They've almost milked it for all its worth. It was still good, but there's parts I don't get. If anyone watches it.. pls explain to me how Jigsaw ends up back in the room at the end of the movie. There's going to be a Saw 5 and hopefully it ends there. They need to make a new movie already. This month has a lot of good movies coming up... my top 2 MUST SEES for November are Lions for Lambs and American Gangster-*definite MUST WATCH*

Till next timee!!

Photos from Thanksgiving

My legendary weekend (Thanksgiving)

So my legendary weekend begins with a car accident on a Friday evening. No one was hurt, but someone had to pay a lot of money. The price of impatience. But that didn't damper the night cos Eric Prydz was in town and we were going to see him do his thing. The music was phenomenal, the energy was crazy, the vibe was awesome. In all, I don't think I've had more fun in my life. With my 2 favourite canadians with me (pheap and chrissy), it only made it better.

Saturday came fairly quickly, from having too much fun and we got ready to leave Ottawa and go back to kingston (home for all 3 of us). Most of saturday was spent resting and driving, then the 1st turkey dinner of the weekend came. Thanth cooked an awesome dinner, which tasted great! Pheap met Thanth for the first time (Thanth is the equivalent of my dad... he's great that way. ) They hit it off really well (which i still find hard to believe)and my babe even took his money at poker. Afterwhich, we all hit the club (another first in a looooong time for Thanth)and drained every last bit of energy we had. Going to bed after was the highlight of the day really.

Then came Sunday, my stress day. I was going to meet the parents. Everything went better than i thought.. and i think they like me? The pre-dinner (noodles and spring rolls).....OMG delectable. The dinner, the 2nd turkey dinner was great, the gravy, the ham, and the turkey... all great! Then we went out to play pool...i watched and gave support to the bf and is bro. I think I should learn to play pool properly... it seems stupid that i suck so badly.Then we rented Aladdin (Princess Jasmine :))watched it with his bro at home and then we all went to bed.
My bf's parents are funny, they remind me of home, just cos they're SO ASIAN. The vibe in the house (from khmer music)and the interactions between everyone, it feels like a real home and that was a great feeling.

By Monday, i think both of us were recharged and ready to go back to ottawa and cook our last turkey dinner of the weekend.So it was a slight rush back, just cos his parents decided to take a roadtrip and come up to ottawa too. By 7pm, the dinner was ready and everyone came and had a great time. Me and pheap are still the reigning scrabble champions *yay* and we just fun with good conversation, good food, great people.

So that's my weekend, and it was a well deserved one for all of us. I can't wait to have more weekends like that, minus the car accident. I can't wait till Christmas!!! I'm so excited!

Till next time... I'll post pics from the weekend up!

Paint my days a rainbow

So it's been a while since my last update.Everything's quite the same. School's the same old, with a larger workload. Friends are keeping up quite well, weather's still not too bad, but it's been raining a fair bit.

So the newest addition to my not-so-exciting life, is my boy. So some quick facts.
Name:Sopheap Hok (so-p-up)
Age:23
Place of birth : Thailand, but he's cambodian.
Raised in: Kingston, Ontario, Canada.

So, it feels strange to be in a relationship all over again.At the same time, I don't quite remember ever being this happy... EVER.I wish I could describe him with words but I can't. He's something else,so special, I think I really lucked out this time.One thing's for sure, things haven't been the same ever since I met him. I realise you get so caught up with life, sometimes you forget the little things. Right now, there is no one I'd rather share the little things with.

This whirlwind of emotions scare me more than anything, but something is different this time. I think it's cos it really feels like I'm with a MAN, not a boy.I don't know what i did to deserve someone like him, but I'll be eternally grateful.

So, i know how to make springrolls from scratch.. and i even know how to make the dipping sauce. My boyfriend rocks! Cos he feeds me with home cooked asian food! *yum!

Late nights

So I lay here, it's a quarter to 3am. I have to be up to differenciate an equation in 5 hours. But my body is not ready to sleep. So, I've finally decided to update my blog.The last 3 weeks have been crazy busy... meeting up with everyone, moving all my crap to a different location, partying, shopping, meeting new people, taking the bus to Jezs's apartment, walking downtown and watching random people, being extremely addicted to tv-links (thanks Nicole!!) and recently, studying.

It's great to be back the Big O is great, more to see and do. Definetely more culture and that fortunately comes with the wider variety of food choices. I love the people of Lebanon.. thanks for creating Shawarmas. I can't wait to explore the city and see everything before winter comes. I'm about halfway there cos I keep taking the wrong bus and end up sitting in the bus while it goes the longest way possible. Res life is kinda fun I guess. Lots of new people to see and meet.. very very bad food.. but it's fun overall. Being in international res is awesome.. u see people from all over the globe.. literally.

University life is fun.. I'm not too worried about exercise cos apparently the campus is super huge and to walk from one bulding to another takes a good ten minutes..so yeah.. I think it's all good. The workload is increasing exponentially but it's a good thing.. keeps me busy. Ottawa is good for concerts so I'll be looking out for a good one to attend in the near future (hopefully).

For some reason I think I've mellowed.. I haven't partied as much as I think I should? Oh well.. I think I'm getting lazy. Oh and I'm on the 15th floor of my res, which is top floor. Man the view is superrr amazing. Nice view of the city cos Im right downtown!

Ok I think I'm actually sleepy now. But I need to share my joke of the year... Moo.. thanks for being online.She cld be the face of China eh. I'm still sticking to the fact Cleo is choosing her as a joke. I won't mention names cos yeah.. I'm no Angel.. but I'm no devil either. HAHAHA(this went on for like ten mins when i saw it)Ok.. now that I've had my bowl of Bitchy, I'm ready to retreat to slumberland.

Peace out.

Pictures will be uploaded soon. My camera is kinda F***ed.

Why do all good things come to an end...

So I'm pretty much at the 2 week mark. I have 2 weeks to pack my bags, do all the things I haven't done, eat all the things I haven't eaten and meet all the people I haven't met. 2 weeks seems too short.

The time back home was a blast.. more than I can imagine. I thought coming back and then leaving wld be easy... who knew it was gonna feel like the 1st time. It's the few people that will keep me coming back at least once a year. At the same time, I realised that my social circle has depleted. I didn't quite realise that time fades friendships... it's like we're strangers all over again... So I can imagine.. in 4 years the friends that I'll still have by me will probably be like 5. But it's alright.. cos sometimes you might just only need one... But the truth is people do change... and change is sometimes difficult to accept.

I need to start packing.. like really soon. i NEED to come up with my To-do list! I've been idle at home for days now. I need to get my stuff done damnit. Packing is going to suck cos I'm bad at it and it just reminds me of leaving.

My only consolation are my friends back in Kingston. They're planning outings, clubbing, dinner BBQs and preparing a room to crash in. Obviously they do not empatize with me at all for leaving home... they're more pissed at the fact I was gone all summer.I love my friends... every last one of them.. here or there. They really paint my world with colours, laughter and love.They are simply my world, my pride and joy.

Speaking of friends...
I miss you, more than I can imagine. Thanks for the memories.But because all good things come to an end....

Bittersweet

So as of today, I'm no longer employed. That means that 2 months have flown. 2 damn months out of the 3 months that I'm back has flown! I have one month left to savour every moment spent with the people I love more than anything in the world. Dear God.. I'll be away for 11 months thereafter....Wow..

At the same time, I'm yearning to see the people I've learnt to love on the other side of the world. To re-live the crazy, drunk, sober,spastic times. To breathe in the nice fresh air and manja my cat.. and freeze my ass off. It's only going to be 27 days till I leave. Oh man.. I think only Jezs knows what i'm feeling.. it's like extreme excitement and at the same time... extreme sadness.

Highlights

** Drama at the Workplace
** Retro clubbing at MOS (bloody awesome)
** Cafe Del Mar- Thanks to those who put up with my drunken nonsense. Won't happen again :)
** Daily supper at Mas Ayu with Vicki dearest.
** Attica Too
** Drinking at Gorges
** Being entertained by Vicki B.

I'm free for a month.. so Zoo, Night Safari, Sentosa, Clubs, East Coast Beach, Airport, Coffee Shops and all things Singaporean... here I come! Hurray.

And as for bittersweet.. someone tell me why it seems like it's more bitter than sweet.

Long Over due!

Ok so my posts have started to get more irregular. But I have valid reasons. I work 6 bloody God damned days a week. i barely have time to comb my hair.. u know what I mean. But somehow.. this stressful, hectic, tiring life appeals to me. I've been doing very well. Work is stressful but it has its perks. I really only have time for the people that I REALLY want to spend time with.. you guys know who u are. So it's a great excuse to give to those who's company I can really do without.

Higlights of the past few weeks would include:
* Clubbing at Zouk
* Chilling out at East Coast.
* Certain work incidents.
* Fabulous 4's last supper
* Dessert at Canale(heavenlicious)
* Parents leaving :(
* My various delicious feasts.
* Shane's condo!!*again pls babe?*
* Moo's in Japan:( (Tokyo bananas?!!)
* Rebonded hair.

So yeah. BUT the main highlight is WOMAD!!! We need to dig very deep into our pockets.. but at least we're digging together right??!! I'm already excited.. I hope I really get to go.. even if it's one day. I forget to carry my camera when i go out!! Argh.. ok more pics the next time.

Pearly Teo!!! Pls meet up!! Both you and your girlfriend.. I want to meet her!! and we can eat at this fabulous dessert place. better that Max Brenner!! OMG the chocolate is TO DIE FOR!

And I miss my 2 cats.(The one in canada and the one in Aussie!) Very random but I really do.

Pictures Galore

My lovelies!!! With clare missing.

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up these defenses, you build this whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life. You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They do something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own any more. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
--Neil Gaiman

So yeah.. I agree with the above the quote. I love Nei Gaiman.

So work still SUCKS. I'm getting too fat, it's quite disgusting. I need a foot massager! Blah. this sucks!!


Sense Field- Save Yourself
Turn out the lights.
Just say goodnight
To yourself.
May I remind you
When you find you
Are all alone's when you've
Got to be strong.
That's when they call you
In the night.
He's got your picture
In his mind.
He's got your number
On a paper
At his disposal
Anytime.

Is he really true?
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you?
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who,
Someone who,

You met in a bar.
The back of a car.
And for a moment
You felt important
But not in your heart.
'Cause my self esteem -
It's been low.
Go ahaed and count.
It's been lower than low.
I know the feeling
Of it stealing
Right out from under me.

'Cause I wanna learn -
How you save yourself
For someone who
Could love you for you.
So many times
We just give it away
To someone who
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
Loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who
Someone who
Will cherish your name.

'Cause I wanna learn.
Could you save yourself
For someone who
Loves you for you?
And loves me for me?
Give it away
To someone who,
Someone who'll
Cherish your name...
Cherish your name...


This is a useless post. But this song seems appropriate for the quote above.